can I just give up?

Yes? or No?

erm... someone said. dont ever give up..look back what is your weakness.. move forward and dont turn back

i did take note what is going on... i tried figure what am i weak on.. i already doing some further steps. well a lot ...( i think)

i try to move foward ...and dont look back..

but why

the same thing happen again?

the incident ..REALLY painfull..

whether it a small thing ...or a big thing

* communication - active listening ( failed)

* venessection - taking blood ( failed)

*....... .... ( failed)

* family study project ( failed - need to chance pregnant mom..)

my teacher said to me don't be too hard to myself. is it wrong to expect the thing that i already experience before to be more better this time?

sometime i just think... i am suitable person....to be....a doctor?

( i know this sentence not really appropriate but... )

erm..but i will hold myself...and said " I WILL NEVER GIVE UP"...

Ya Allah ..please guide me..

give me strength to overcome this problem...

show me the correct way...

i know you are the one who only know me...more than myself...

please....

(T_T )

refreshing..

A GREAT story of Sultan Salahuddin Al-Ayubbi really strike my heart.

a Tiger of Islam.

I like this song.. ^_^

" keimanan juga ketaqwaan rahsia mereka capai kejayaan"

I am just wonder how his wife life ? how she being a real supporter for Sultan Salahuddin?. How she raise of their child while her husband being far from them ..going to the war.

who is she?

taking blood but no blood

venessation 2 :

what happen?

i did practise one time at false arm. and do it at my friend.

well... i think that i confident enough...because I know all the step clearly.

but that happen is i cannot get a blood again this year.. huhu... frustrating ..

thing to take note:

my hand shaking vigorously...

patient arm should be straight.

(comment from dr Meena)

thing to be improve:

to avoid shaking hand happen again.. be confident and be quick when inject the needle to the skin. like a blink on eyes. " be fast ". therefore less shaking and harm to patient.

(comment from Raudah)

myself : remember to wash hand after the venessation.

problem happened

i felt this year our instructor do not really paying attention and access each of the student seriously like last year.

might be because too many person in numed group per session this time compared to last year. plus not enough time.

another method to improve ... in this condition perhaps.

each partner need to concentrate and focus when their own partner practise the skill.

and it important for our own colleague give a positive feedback seriously.

give and take ^_^ concept.. take a look at each other.

lesson to be learn:

1. it really important to master the skill and to it right. although those session had been learned before it does not mean that you already know everything already.
2. keep focus and do not feel shy to asked although it your 2nd time you learn it. be positive and ready to receive feedback from others
3. give positive feedback to college is really important to help her to improve.

Connection is not available ..teetttt.... ^_^

As i go on ..

my day... not as bright as b4...

cloudy enough but still can make me smile..

i realize I am missing you already

no more connection between us...

it seems that you

already far from me..

what i can do..see you from far..

and smile..

just let it be....

people can come and go

I realize

... nothing permanent..

except Allah

what I can do ... remember the memory..and appreciate it

because that all left..for me

anyway...life need to go on ..

many secret things waiting in front.

walk step by step.. moving forward.

appreciate the word now because it a gift.

finish and not finish

assignment 1 finish.. but assessment 1 coming... huhu 3 day left.

gambatee..

assignment 1

i am tired already...

huhu... just a little bit more...

but my eyes... half open..

need something to cheer me up ...what huh?

please be silent ~shuuu

I am not sure it happen with guys or not.

but it usually happen among girl. I admit ..sometime me too involve with this.

speak in mosque...is not really a good attitude. especially when praying ..

I observe ..it still happen in mosque and plus during Eid prayer.. sometime I think why that happen..why in woman place are more noisy than man place?

i dont know, i felt so sad when i realize it.. but somehow..me too keep repeating those attitude.

in my opinion why it happen...because

if me..

I realize I tend to talk with people in mosque because that time I met new friend or friend that from another course. it make me exciting ...and tend to ask how are they? even though I know about attitude in mosque.. it just I usually forgot about it

if other girls make noise nobody advise them maybe .. others that see it felt it still normal..to them.

greet people is good ...however.. need to be at proper time and place.

..sometime i think is it because girls like to talk from boys or ...it depend to the people..self control is important.

I wrote this to remind myself and hopefully others too..

please be silent in mosque..respect others

lets do it..