Besday present

18 July will be my birthday. I wish i could get a book about Journey of Prophet Muhammad S.A.w. Ya Rasulullah. i really want to know you more.
right now. if i want to buy one. i don't know which book is the best that tell about him and the reliable one.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTdoy40MsHA&feature=related
a song Laukana Bainana. made me miss you more  , Rasulullah s.a.w.
i remember since my day in penang matriculation college last 3 years  and half ago. i had the same wish.to get the book. and know prophet Muhammad more. i asked my friend about which book is good. however, at that moment i cant buy it because i did not have a lot of money.

busy with  my life. i forgot about that wish. today i remember back. that why i write it here so i wont forget. this year. i will find the book. i will. to be honest i still don't know what type of book to buy. insyallah i will find it.

i hope i can find the book as my birthday present  soon enough and read it during Ramadhan month. after my exam.

anyone... could you suggest one?

http://prophetictimeline.com/Prophet/Timeline.php



^_^

My favourate quote

1.be thankful of what i have now
2. manjadda wajadda
3. Allahu Mai , Allahu Syahidi, Allahu Nazirun Ilayya.
4. talk less more action
5. when there is dream there will be the way to achieve it
6.Stay POSITIVE

Stay healthy

the best doctor is the one who can take care of herself and stay healthy mental and physically.
even that the doctor have a disease. as long as she can cope and go on with her life as usual that is owesome seriously.

Volunteer is needed!! ^_^

assalamualaikum.
Volunteer is needed!! ^_^ Tell if you can see or heared about this in your area.

nowdays a lot of news in tv show about a lot of crime occur in public area. such as roberry, kidnap, and many more. to be honest it make people feel afraid and feel difficult to trust people surrounding. major barrier to do good deed.

supposely a lot of good deed that we can do not just donation in term of money right ? . let brain storm about this. in uk especially in my local area is so easy to volunteer seriously. just sign up put name address and evidence that i am a student i can get information about activities and volunteer job etc by letter monthy from my local area (fenham) . besides that i can just sign up from university website about volunteer job. if there is any news i can get it easily and reply it trough email. but seriously in malaysia i found it difficult. especially when i dont not have friend that close to my house to plan it together.

can someone answer my questions regarding to community service in your local area. share with me your experience.
what is your age, and how many volunteer work that you already do to your neighbourhood.? tell me what kind of work if any. how you do it?

if not
what type of thing that i or we possibly can do (as volunteer) to our surrounding my house area. ? any organisation or website that we can refer?

i hope when i return to my country this summer at least i able to contribute something to my local area and neighbourhood before the term start.

Will power? when it will come

I have a problem to start study especially during holiday.
well... reason?: a lot. basically distraction .

i talk with people ...about it. seem that other friend have the same problem. from one to one friend. ... well maybe it universal problem to university student.
things like.. i felt gulty now.. i waste too much time already..because of bla2..
realized i need to study... bla2 ..
I realized i dont have the mood or will power to do it...bla2
but I dont know how.. bla2
the conversation continue to find the answer of the solution

i am too busy talking to people.

i forgot to ask myself my opinion.

when i ask myself. i actually find the answer.

i recognised one thing now. i used too much time worried of not study.. and try to find solution.

i already waste my time

so the answer is...

i dont study much. = now! go to do it. study! pergi la buat skrg!!

i dont have the will power to do it= say now, lailahaillah, astagfirullah, alhamdulillah, Allahu Akhbar. many times. if i want more.. solat, al-quran.. basically ( back to Allah)

when problem comes ... and we too think about it. we forgot 2 things to check back our relationship with allah on that moment and the action next.

too much complain or talk or self aware will be useless when it come zero action.

5 complain x 0 action = o results

5 awareness x 0 action = 0 results

5 ways of solution x 0 action= 0 results

(5 complain + 5 awareness +5 ways of solution )x 0 action= 0 results

what if this i do this?.

5 ways of solution x 1 action =5 results

5 ways of solution x5 action =25 results

(5 complain + 5 awareness +5 ways of solution )x 5 action = 75 results
(5 complain + 5 awareness +5 ways of solution )x 15 action = 225 results

wow.. ^_^

terbaik, owesome, brilliant. haha

lets less talking and do more action.

ok. a reminder for me.. start now. bye.

Impian saya ^_^

assalamualaikum.
seems like ages i did not post anything in my blog. i almost forgot about this blog when i am too busy writing my assingments. alhamdulillah everything has been submitted.

i want to refresh my dream.

actually i am feeling shy to post this. to said what my dream is. but i think when i do this it a step to make it real. i know this is crazy.. well let see how crazy is that.

MY ultimate dream : die in proper condition with iman and islam.

since secondary school i have dream which is to be 'isteri solehah' or aka aim toward excellent wife. what a weird dream though. i know now i am not marry to anyone yet but it not a fault to dream right? this come first when my second dream about my ambition as a doctor. well you know why? i tell you few reasons

1. when my secondary school a lot of my roomate and even classmate have a boy friend aka ' rakan istemewa or special friend' . it like a trend seriously.. mcm penyakit merebak pun ada. to be honest sometimes i felt jealous when they have someone to share and laugh etc. i think that normal...yet when i look at them..this dream come out. to be 'isteri solehah' i need to take good care of myself is a even before marriage also after that. i want the' halal' relationship.

2. when i start to work ... i really want to plan my daily life to make sure i be able to handle my family. i dont want to abandon them because of my work. not matter how busy i am.

then my ambition as a doctor. i still remember there is guys in my previous university in uitm. they laughing at me when i decided to be a doctor as my profession, they said in future it hard for me to get a husband because of the busy job and also status. however everyone need to remember there is nothing easy in today life. even a teacher also can be busy..how it that? i have heard a lot of successful doctors who can manage to handle the family. it so possible to do this plus i my first dream is to be 'isteri solehah' right?
i believe in Allah. right one for me will be out there. he will choose me from who i am and my family, and accept me as myself.

3. why doctor? to be honest this is not my first ambition my first one is to be an inspector (being influnce by gerak khas drama in tv on that time haha) . so opposite right? so far... i enjoy learing medicine especially when it come to practise. osce, communication ...visit patient, visit other health care professional . i like it. i dont said that i already good in doing that but i enjoy it. be a doctor is a good opportunity for me to keep doing good deeds in mylife (stereotype answer huh) it is ok!! . i dont have a lot of money to give people but i want to help to heal people ' inside and outside'. to be a competence doctor i need to learn...more right now.
4. i love topic food and exercise when i am young. i know that i am cubby right now but i want to learn more about this apply it and share this with people surrounding me. therefore i really want spread this. start from my hometown. then to the whole country. education about diet and exercise is important to reduce number of diabetes and heart problem in malaysia. healthy lifestyle basically. i am sure it already establish in malaysia. but i need to find more info about this and find a friends who want to join.

lensa di edinburgh

Jealous

yes, i am jealous with them!

they can go out serve to junior, attend a spiritual program, and spend their summer wisely.

to be honest if people choose me to be a facilitator for junior that will be my first time. I am afraid. whether I can do it or not. but up until now I don't have the the opportunity to do it especially when I have free time.

I saw them post the feedback and their experience from the program to Facebook wall or Blog.

It make me felt helpless and not valuable as a youth. did not contribute anything to the community.

yeah I am helpless and not important. just let them do it. they are better than me.

I AM JEALOUS NOW ... ok.

huhu =.=''

Bored : (

bored is what people usually said when they have a lot of free time.

especially during holiday.

a normal things to do are eat, sleep, watch tv or movie, play with laptop, chatting, and reading.

this is what usually happen when a person do not have aim what they want to achieve every day. therefore time past by... waste .... just like that.

it already nearly 2 weeks and 5 days i am back in Malaysia. i never been to another place yet .. beside than home, litter sister school, market, tesco, hospital,

and now I am feeling extremely bored. AaaaaRRGH!!!!

.

time to be Silent

starting from now..

I want to stay silent .. shuu ...

I wont start any more.. no more ok..

hurt and regret .. it my fault .. :(

I Should not do that anymoreeeee...

starting from tomorrow

I just need to keep myself busy..

let it be..

let it go..

trough like a wind passing by.. me..

I can do it!!!

Driver And car

mini cooper? nah... I just use mini manual kancil car.

i just got my permanent driving license last 2 days. to be honest I never driving about nearly 2 years and I need to start driving back starting from zero. I totally forgot how to drive.

but that ok.

I tried to learn driving every evening to market. trying to drive in a buzy road really a good challenge for me. I need to be able to drive safely in 2 days more. after that I being responsible to sent my little sister to school for a week by my own. no more being supervise by my father.

today i make a great success. It my first time my car engine dont not stop suddenly when driving, drive in about 3 hours and( imbang klas dan minyak untuk naik bukit) . alhamdulillah. I manage to do it today.

I have a short term dream ..I hope that in about two to three weeks more I want to be able to drive on the way to Kodiang, uncle house. ( 1 4/5 hours).highway ok!!

that all..

wheelchair

I just want to said I respect with persons who manage to used wheel chair by themselves.

I Had tried it by myself using my mom wheel chair.

do you know how hard to used it by ourselves?

first of all we don't use our legs to move but we use mainly our small finger to hold the wheel and our hand to make it move. even to turn right or left being really difficult to a normal person I cant imaging how the sick person handle it by themselves without people helping them.

moving forward? we need same energy and force at our both hand to move foward. this movement really tiring ...believe me ok.

how about if there is a door or a bit heel in front of them?

of course more force needed.

ok that my experience handling wheel chair by myself.

we need to be grateful when we still have chance to walk by ourselves.

thank you Allah .. for still lend me leg to walk properly.

^_^

XD

asthma vs COPD

skin anatomy

http://www.fpnotebook.com/der/exam/sknantmy.htm

Racism

situation..





two options to buy a second hand car.


silver car : one of the owner is a old british guy.


red car : one of the owner is a indian guy.





which car would you choose?


silver car.





why?


because british people usually take a good care of their things and usually they are honest especially when do or sell something , so when they tell about the car condition in the advertisement ... may be it will be more reliable. (sterotyping )








or





because usually indian people always lie? so dont trust them? (sterotyping .. if you had this experience it does not mean every indian like this)














hello people ...


this is racism...stop this action!


we cant just choose the silver car base on this judgement. discrimination





be professional...


collect first .. all the information about those car. investigate ... and analysed the data..


then make a choice.








who knows actually the best car would be the red one. ^_^

*reminder to myself*

how to be a Good doctors?

according to GMC guideline
" a good doctor

1. make their patients their first concern


2. they are competent


3. they keep up date their knowledge and skill.


4. establish and maintain good relationship with patient and colleagues.


5. honest and trustworthy


6. act with integrity "

i am in Mode of PPD revision.

a miracle happen.

today i had osce examination.

what happen? and how did i react?
i finish the cvs examination on time .. however after the question i forgot to bring my file to the next station. when the bell rang 3 times i enter the station. it was communication station. " examiner : where your file ? " oh no.. I RAN OUT TO THE PREVIOUS STATION" . i know that i dont have much time left . i need to take the patient medical history. subahanallah.. alhamdulillah.. Allahu Akbar. I can understand the patient... and remember it well.. even though I dont have more time to ask extra question. thank you for make my situation easy ..Oh Allah.


one more in BP station. I CAN't HEAR THE KOROFKOFF SOUND. and i cant get theBP reading.
should i lied that i get bp and say the no in the normal range eg the bp is 118/70 mmhg?
i can do that . but .. this time i am not..
ergh... i know that my mark will be deducted due to this condition.

why i cant lie? i always practise when taking bp i just said and write what i heard from the stetoscope. i alreasdy get used to that habit.

of course.. it because i will be a doctor one day. i dont want to lie about the my examination...

i realise it at the next station.. my stetoscope was switch off . i forgot to turn it on.. " clicking sound". ( patut la x dpt )! major mistake here... abisla.. ^_^


what did i learn?
dont blame other ( eg : blame exminer bcoz not give me back the folder")
realized my own mistake and admit it ( i am the one who forgot to take the file and i am the one who not check the stetoscope is open or not when taking bp.)
practise osce is good to help me to be more fluent . but during the osce dont just spill up the word. check carefully when examine the patient is there any abnormality.

for communication( headache and angina )
pick up non-berbal cue.. ( especially when the patient show paintfull faceh.. say to her . you look really in pain right now.( baru la patient tu berasa best kn? penat berlakon ...tunjuk muka sakit. tp dr ni perasan..wah ..kn best?)

what you will do if you face the same situation in future?
just be more aware about the file after each station. if that happen.. i need to check back the file before i move to the next station and before the bell start to ring again indicate.. start time.

i will check the stetoscope first before i apply it to the patient arm. make sure it open.


i still dont want lie just to get the mark ..if i did the procedure wrongly .. .because what ever happen .. patient must come first.




that all my reflection for today.. need to leave everything to ALLAH. i did my best.. and i am happy for it ..now the time to leave everything to Him.

my time for having lunch ..rest a bit.. and start back my study for my paper exam on tuesday and wednesday next week. 4 days left.

tata..

human embryology -module life cycle 1

question and ans for basic blood clot

http://www.biology-questions-and-answers.com/blood-questions.html

all about them.

it already near exam. tomorrow will be 24 may. 7 days left to study.

my friends will start their OSCE tomorrow while mine will be on 27 may.

who are they?

i know them nearly two years.

maybe next year i wont be able to see them anymore. .. these people that i love.

i hope Allah make things easier for them...

my 2nd year newcastle medical friends...

^_^