Wedding ceremony ~^_^~

its my 2nd sister wedding... 29.10.10-30.10.10

barakallahu lakuma...my beloved sister..hope you always happy and your love last until Jannah ^_^

I dedicate this song for you..

just a reflection:

I should never go to the lecture last friday evening. i missed the ceremony of ijab kabul my beloved sister through skype.

the day her wedding (yesterday)... i cant reach her...no skype this time..

it the most important day of her life and I am not there.

I never know who my brother in law...just look at photo.

I never have change to see them... yet

I never have change to talk to my parent ....that day..

I know they are busy...

But it just me...

that missing them so much.

I will never forget this feeling..

this is one of risk study in UK. I understand that.

sacrifice.... needed .

as I thought before choose to come here...I already think about it.

this remind me... back..in first place the important thing to be consider..for me to take medicine as my course.

can I spend my time equally?

I Realized that I will have more responsibility and busy in future..

* imagine 6 years from now in HO* + * being Dr and has my own family*

I learn...how busy I am in the now and in the future...I need to prepared myself.

at least I should spend my free time with them..especially in special occasion.

because once it happen...there will be no turn back..

family ...must come first.

try to be balance

A story of Dark chocolate

Among every kind of chocolate in the store there is one chocolate that got a girl attention. A Cadbury Bournville classic dark chocolate.why ? Bitter (dark chocolate), 200g , affordable and easy to get.

price???

iceland: 1.25pd

wilko: 1.15pd

others shop? erm.. 1.25 pd and above usually.

the girl always like to eat it and make sure she had stock for it every weekend.

why must be that chocolate ?

Bitter (dark chocolate), 200g , affordable and easy to get. she heard from someone if eat dark chocolate good for heart ,so she believe it..

and because..

the taste of it~ remind her for her life journey.. ~ life journey is like dark chocolate~

although it quite bitter she can taste the sweetness of the chocolate.

and also taste tasty and feel warm.

life also like that

not easy.. although its hard,plenty of obstacle , and sometime make she cried ...she still feel happy in some way..to have it.and make her smile..

the girl always bought it..she bring it everywhere she go ( if she remember it..haha)

to the lecture hall, bridge ( altough 5 time already), train station, park,and many more.

memory of sharing it with her friends ... make her smile ^_^.

she always want to go to wilko to buy it because it cheaper there ...

sometimes her friend bough the orange dark chocolate... to her (additional taste) from chocolate factory..she smiled brightly...and eat it with fully of joy

until.... summer holiday..

something had happen... the girl always feeling sad when eat it.

the chocolate still in the supermarket shelf. that girl stop to buy it.

it already 4 month past by...

her friend asked her

.. nak coklat ^_^

...coklat apa?

laa...dark chocolate la

.. erm...dah stop beli la..

now..

she start to like the dark chocolate back..

she got a present "dark chocolate"... from her beloved friends....

friends that want her to do her best in study... encourage her not to sleep in class. although they are not there ..

the girl surely will hold the chocolate tightly at class.. eat it with her eyes open..and smile

they make her remember

her word....

life is like dark chocolate

~the end~

thanks ^_^

Are you alone at night? take Night Bus

today I had class till 8.30pm . well it quite late for me because it already dark and raining a little bit outside. I lost contact with my friend and then .. I am alone at med school..

I am getting scared. ( well coz I am a girl ^_^ .. dont want to take risk to went back alone by walking)

not because I am not brave enough but just take it as precaution.

just to share with you all.. if you have undergo same situation with me.

what to do?

1. walking back alone

2. taxi

3. go to monument and take bus from there

4. try to call friend to accompany you

5. get NIGHT BUS.

about NIGHT BUS (more information at the card. there are some in library)

wait at medical school reception before 9.10pm. if possible inform the receptionist.

bus came at 9.10pm take you from medical school to your house. (if not busy). easy right?

how much.. 70pence per person

so, stay safe in when ever option that we choose.. ^_^

(guidance for me and friend that live far from the uni and want to stay at uni till 9.10 pm)

Case 2 and family study pack was coming today

actually i want to write about my experience during last weekend but seem that i dont have time and i was too tired.

basically.. it was a nice memory

1. play basketball with clovy and marlie, 2 local kids ,age 8 years old and 9 years old. + dutch ball.

2. went to byker to find a bike ( but could not have one ...huhu... must try next time) --> biscuit factory --> town: meet a fish owner at fish shop,Grainger market ..he tought me a healthy recipe to cook fish.

today

case 2 launching ..

a pack of family study was given.. it seems that there is some different aspect need to be emphasise compared to last year

family study project

due date 21 march 2011

about 5 month project

gambatee ^_^

Am I a bad person?

being push by my little local kids near my house..

and they want to kick the foot ball toward me..

and they chasing me..toward Hutchinson shop

before this.....they already picked stones and throw it to

me..

what did I do?

is it wrong to smile and say hi to them?

or is it because i am a muslim girl that wearing hijab? * just a first thought.. but I dont think this is the reason*

erm...perhaps I still not good in handling kids..

one last sentence..i asked them..

why you don't like me?

they answer it with Geordie assent ..i cant really hear it well...

their face already show they don't like me and that little girl show her hand....****

hmm..

it is will be like this..

or should I treat them by give them sweet? erm... not sure.

will they smile back to me?

can anybody give any suggestion on how to be kind with the local kids here?

my dream..... hope they can smile like this to me. ..in the future.. ^_^

who is this?

focus ^_^

being distracted today..

need to keep my heart strong .. put back all the broken pieces together.

I need to concentrate...

be an emperor.. plan my strategy

iiman you can do it!!

osmosis practise ^_^

well friends i found this from prof bradley .. to revise about concept and calculation that we learn today. hopefully this help you and me too.


http://edtech.clas.pdx.edu/osmosis_tutorial/default.html
http://www.rcs.rome.ga.us/hargett/biology/osmosis/osmotutc.htm

look like a lot of work today..
let working ^_^
gambateee

Ethics 1 - common ethical issue

today I had discussion in my new seminar group, group 9. well it about 18 of us in that seminar group.

this time I team up with Dan and Meg .

our discussion topics

1. me ( should UK law to change in order to allow parent choose their own baby gender?)

2. Dan (euthanasia) - should ventilation being stop to patient that no chance to recover?

3. Meg ( abortion principle related to religion- should medical practise ignore their religion in order to respect patient autonomy?)

we don't have final discussion.. well that we call ethic ^_^ no wrong and right.

one of our discussion that I remember about topic 3.

I got different point of view from people that do not believe in religion.

we are not really discussing not really about Islam believe as what my last year ethic group but actually other religion type of Christianity..that they believe not to do abortion in any condition.. eg : if want to choose mother and child.. child should be save.. first

again .. resources give an important role and 4 principle should be considered.

Kids

I played with k ita kids at her house today..

azhad, azri, aishah, and afiah..

it really fun.

playing game with them..make a birthday cap to azhad. (with ben 10 picture)

My first time hanging around with azri today.. he quite a nice and active kid.

I bring him to my friend house. hoho.. feel like a sister..need to taking care of him.

but it such a nice experience.

I need to run (with skirt) ..to reach him during the journey.

find idea to talk to him...

well...

he succesfully make my day today... he make me smiled. ^_^

after that other kids in K reen house make me happy too.

it quite worth it ..spending time with all them..

Ethic and communication session

Principal of ethic
1. justice
2. follow the Authority
3. benificience
4. non-malificience


communication video session

feedback
-posture too foward
-too tense
- too much pause
- repeat people statement. (good)
-maintain eyes contact.

Central Dogma

from last week and this week , i am learning about MTC Modul which correlated with case 1 : cyctic fibrosis.
this is because cyctic fibrosis is a disease cause by gene mutation .. it related to gene .. however we geing teach not to assume the specific gene are the one that cause it. they still other causes of this disease.

Many lecture we being thought about biochemistry, anatomy etc.
one of the lecture was CENTRAL DOGMA :

i found that this video quite interesting to understanding the basic concept of it.

let take a look ^_^

english version was more similar and detail as what I being tought.




this one a little bit old concept but i like the Japan explanation..hoho...quite weird when heard the Japan language

I am alone

this what I think... during at the beginning of this course.

everything that happen..teach me about loneliness

if I hope ...to have friends on my side always..

I realize

friends come and go.. ...

that the reality..

then ..I am alone.. again.

is it bad to be alone?

at first .. there must be negative thinking about it. it must be sad, lonely..etc

however I realize..

He never leave me alone..

He always be with me.. when I study in UK far from family.

He always with me.. when I walk go and back from university.in sunny or rainy day.

He always with me .. when I want to carry heavy things after shopping.

He always with me.. when I want to sleep and wake up everyday.

He always with me.. when I talk happily with my friends.

He always with me .. when I sad..afraid of be alone..or having a problem. even tough I usually tend to talk with people about it... first.

He always be with me .. when I am afraid to meet my previous batch.

I know... sometime I always forgot about Him.

I always thinking about my study, my family,my friend, love.. more than I thinking and remember Him..

it seem unfair to Him

however,

I really hope ...

I can remember Him more consistently . as He always be with me...at any time..in my life.

now I know why my father asked me.. to always..say this in my heart. ..

Allahu Ma'i : Allah berserta dgn ku

Allahu Syahidi : Allah menjadi saksi bagiku

Allahu Nazirun Ilayya : Allah melihat akan daku.

I never walk alone ^_^

Clinical skill lab- handwashing

I meet DR Meena .. she will be my teacher for clinical skill for this year too.

oh no... I really cant bear to see her eyes in class just now. she looked me... Oh nO..

after 30 minutes lecture about hand washing and 30 minutes practise 6 step for hand washing. I went out as soon as possible.

as I thought , I am stuck on the way to went out from the corridor . well I meet them. I am walking out and they are walking in. I really want to ran as fast as I can. I am trying to hide behind my colleague.

I hope I really have a strong determination to walk confidently with smile and joy...every time we meet. saying.. Hi.. ^_^

thorax - my 1st Dr session in 2010

2 Hours dating with CADAVER and bones.

such a great experience be in the new groups. new people and mix with local student. although just 3 of us are Malaysian, I don't feel nervous or scared.

Alhamdulillah. I found that it much easier to answer, discuss and asking question directly to the instructor.

My instructor is totally charming .. I will try not to fall asleep in next DR session. ^_^

revisit this session not a bad thing at all. I learn to cover back the question that I don't know.

I met Tony my first local friend which same group as mine in DR.

today topic

1. vertebrae and rib ( structure, articulate,movement, function,orientation)

2. lungs ( lobes, fissure, helium)

3. land mark (palpable structure eg: spinous process etc)

4. concept of breathing

5. X - RAY

6. pleura

hopefully the next DR will be more interesting.

note: it quite challenging when DR with local. They can discuss and talk really fast. I need to be more prepare in next session. remembering anatomy structure will be help.

Gambatee ^_^